Who Are You?

Who am I? They asked.
Haha,
I am she, I am a lady,
lost in a world of certainty and uncertainty, don't ask me what  I mean by that, and don't tell me to try and know myself, you don't love me more than I do me.

I have forgotten my love life and I don't even know if it matters again,
my relationship with my family is the greatest of all.

What I hear every day is that I'm different,

I don't know what it means, and I don't need clarification.
Shadows of my past secrets creep up on me often, but I dare not share them.
I am not lost and I'm not wandering, I know what I want and where I want to be, but before that, let me self-destruct.

I always come back to myself.
Now who do you think I am